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meh... what a busy year it has been...

 

busy with uni and whatnot.. its soo bad! its hard to juggle having a life (cough) and doing work...

but still!!! good times right?

 

neways... an update on my life.

what is there to say?

first year of uni is passing by soo quickly and i have no idea what i plan to do (or where i will live for that matter) next year! its been amazing tho.. i have meet soo many great people.

*sighs as she reminises*

update on the boy troubles... ahaha... what boy troubles at the momo..???

 

ummmm.... a guy that owns one of the clubs down here, Dave... we kind of have a thing going on at the moment... nothing offical.. but i like him... he likes me... meh meh..

but the thing that happened between us was that he introduced me to his mate Stu.. and then Stu had a crush on me for a while.. ohh man... it was one massive love triangle!!!

 

but i think Stu has backed off cuz Dave and him r really good friends... so yeah. altho Stu was a firefighter... a millionaire VS a firefighter... hahaha thats what i had to decide between... but nah.. seriously.. i dont give a shit that Dave has heaps of money... sure that has some perks.. but i dont want any of it.. i mean sure he looks hot wearing his whole custom made suit and tie when hes going to a business dinner or whatever.. hahaha... but hmmm... what was i talking about? ohh yeah, i perfer to be independant.. sometimes it kinda sucks cuz whenever i come to visit him at his club... hes just tooooo busy, that makes me sound soo high maintanace.. haha but i aint tho :( there was this one time i was at the club.. and he was talking around and whatnot talking in his head peice and all i could do was just watch and drink my drink.. it sorta sucked cuz i wanted a bit of time.. and he even promised me that he would give me his undevided attention.. ugh.. i dunno... i think im rambling..

 

but then again... Stu looked like David Beckham.. haha...

 

 

ive moved rooms... im living with Natalie now.. shes great shes quite quiet.. at first it was real awkward when i moved in cuz she was that quiet.. but now we r real good friends.. i quite enjoy it.. and she goes back home on the weekends so i have the room all to myself.. its good spesh when i need sleep, i just cant do that when Nat is in here..

 

did i tell u the whole story about me and Kelly?

 

hahaha neways... long story.. we just drifted apart.. realised how big our differences where.. and had a major fight... she moved out... got all depressed and left uni.. now apparently shes blabbering to everyone that i was the reason for her leaving uni.. but i didnt tell her to leave uni... she decided that herself.. i didnt even talk to her since the fight.. so how was that my fault? and plus... it was her own fault that she didnt make her own friends. if she made friends... she wuldnt of gotten all depressed bein all alone and shit like that and then she wuld of been able to stay in uni... but nope... she wuld rather throw her life away to live with her fiance.. stupid stupid.. oh well.. its her life...

 

works good.. i quite enjoy it... im a bartender now which is great. ive always wanted to be the bartender and now i am.. its quite annoying tho cuz that means heaps of the guys hit on you.. but thats simple cuz all you have to do is tell them to fuck off.. i do like a bit of attention tho. hahaha

 

so this year has been busy busy.. and its nearly spring!!! im soo excited.... i cant wait for summer.. its gunna be amazing.. its the end of winter and already its feeling warm during the day.. its just ohh soo amazing.

but im a bit gutted tho, cuz ill be alone during the summer holidays.. altho i want to stay in wellington for the holidays.. im thinking where will i live? so that sorta sucks... cuz i already have a job down here... and its good pay..

and i dun really wanna be stuck in stupid stratford for a whole 3months.. spesh if im gunna be by myself.. ugh.

 

ohh man... 9 or so more weeks of uni.. how sad is that!!! that means 9 or so more weeks of living in the hostel! man im gunna miss all these peeps.. hopefully ill be able to do roadys during the holidays and stay with them for a while that would be good.. nah actually that would own.. im fully keen to do that.. hahaha.. i need the money first.. damnit.

 

ugh neways.. im gunna go.. get ready to go out tonight... i think im going to go see Dave.. well.. after his dinner.. so ciao everyone... ill try to keep a proper update on my life... not that its interesting anyways.. hahah

okies... i thut... hey... its easter.. and its been ages since i lefted a bloggie... so i thut.. ok... ill go write one..and tell u all about my life.. and whats been the happs.... holy shit.. i hope u aint busy for at least a coupla hours.. lol.. well... the last time i posted a comment... it was prolly like 2months ago... i dun even remi... so well... whats been happenin.. ive been single for over a month now.. lol... and since i live in wellywood.. IVE MEET SOO MANY HOT GUYS!!!!!! omg omg.. lol. its like the best.. i love singleness.. but then again.. its pretty bad. lol

 

neways.... well.... since ive gotten to welly.. ive meet sooooo many amazing people...

 

AnneyBananey: awwww anney... ur such a cutie.. lol i love ya heapers.. ur such a cool chicka.. i love livin with ya!!

ClaireBear: theres my other asian.. lol.. just like anna.. ur an amazing chicky.. and im soo glad that ive meet ya

Beckyyyy!!: "fighting evil by moonlight... winning love by daylight..never running from a real fight.. she is the one called sailor moon!!"

lol.... that pretty much explains everything.. heh...

Tawa: haha even tho i kno ull never read this... but whatever... sup ma nigga. ill see at uni bitch.

Alice: awwww man.. lol... theres nothing to say to u... just that its great living right next to you.. its great!.. us and our sex talks.. its amazing!

Suzy: theres my other favourite aucklander! lol. u better not be having fun without me! study hard woman.. and ill see ya when we get back to the hostel.

NickNick: awwww Nickyyyyyy!!!!! man... i want to hump u so bad!.. hahaha. if not.. i want ur bed.. its ohh soo comfy!!!!

Cammy:... ohh cammy... u kno how to satisfy me with all that suprise sex that u give me... thats all i really need to say about u...

Rosco: awww my love... i want ur boobies.. ur boobies r bigger than mine.. i love feeling them up! it arouses me ohh soo much!

TK: awwww tomtommmm.. i miss u ohh soo much!!! im soo excited that u live near me... literally.. lol. i cant wait till i see ya! big huggles for u!

Dee and Chad: lol.. my soccer boys... u guys better b trainin hard and dun get too tired!! remi, rests and to breathe! and chad..... no mischief huh.. lol..

 

argh... the others... im sorry... im just too lazy thinking of stuff to say.. haha..

 

i gotted a jobbies down in welly too!!.. as a promo girl/bartender.. lol.. i wont tell where tho.. u wuld b shocked.. so if u wanna kno.. just ask me on msn sumtime.. lol its a great job TRUST ME!

 

oooo.. i got my tongue pierced!!!!! prolly like a month ago now.. lol.. and since then.. ive hooked up with like 4guys.. thats pretty bad.. lol but hey!!! im single.. im allowed to. thats y i love welly.. even tho one of them was last night.. when i was in the naki.. heh..

 

uni's pretty hard..ish... heaps of self teaching.. and readings.. and essays... god how i hate essays... i dispise them immensely... or however u spell that shit man. lol.. but ive made heaps of mates at uni.. which is mad cool.. and apparently.. we have to think about who were gunna flat with next yr... im thinking WHOAAAAA thats fast!! i have no idea who i wanna flat with.. but definately not kelly.. lol... im already over having to share a room.. its just annoying.. no privacy.. spesh when u just wanna chill and then theres someone whos playing on the damn playstation 2... and we have the opposite kinds of music... like.. shes all emo like.. and im all happy music.. (not happy happy.. but u kno what i mean) i might move when theres an available spot.. cuz im keen to. to a single room. and that means i can have "visitors" too!! omg yay! lol

 

its only been like 3 days that ive been home.. and already im missing wellington eh... i just miss the fact that town is pretty much 5 minutes away from my house.. and that all my friends pretty much live with me.. cuz when im at home.. im fustrated.. i have to rely on people to drive me around.. i miss my car!!.. i want it to have its WOF and rego.. :( but if i spend that muny on it.. ill b leaving in a week.. so theres no point cuz who will b driving it? i just miss being independant.. its great ya kno.. i cant wait to go flatting next year.. but living in a hostel is great too.. so im just gunna enjoy it to the maximum.. lol

 

hmmmm... im sure i was to write something else.. OHHHHHHHHH YESSSSSSSS...

 

hahahahahahahahahaa.. oh man. the boys and who and what ive been doing.!!! (not in cronological order) hahahaha

 

ok.... first theres Jared... aka JD.. hes an events manager.. and hes 18.. hes worked with me one night and we promoed together.. he was a promo dude and me the promo girl.. lol...

 

next guy.. is Greg... lol... i meet him while i was promoing.. ohh man.. lol.. hes quite funny.. he like.. reminds me of dominic purcell off prison break.. its realllll good.. lol hahaha..

 

hahaha.. after that.. is mat.. lol.. damn sojo's! that was the first night that i got mega drunk since ive been in welly.. that was pretty bad.. but it was a good night... i looked mighty purty might i add.. haha

 

next is Emile.. lol. ohh man.. lol hes the dude on level 2.. at my hostel.. hes hot.. i hooked up with him on st pattys day.. (cuz it was his bday)

 

haha.. pete.... ohh man.. i cant believe this guy was the guy that jonna was going out with when i was in the pagent.. lol what a freakin small world.

 

and then there is josef.. lol.......... people who live in the naki wuld kno him as the Vice- P's son.. hahaha.. man hes a good hook up.. but hes in the ARMY!!!! WTF! ohh soo annoying. hopefully hes coming to see me in a coupla weeks.. were all gunna get drunkies... man.. its gunna b great fun. i love getting drunkies.. but not overly drunkies that i spew my ring out.. thats bad...

 

haha.. 5 out of 6 guys since ive been single... that aint bad... that aint bad... lol. ok.. this is a long blog.. so ima cut it off now.. and if i have any more info.. then ill add it into another one.. ok... tata for now.. ill talk to ya all laterness!

yeah...

 

im over being all depressed and shit like that, abt that boy..

if he loves me like he says he does, he wuld at least try to make an effort to fix whatever we have...

but he hasnt... so meh...............

what can i do abt it. ive done all i culd to try and solve this shit.. and not one reply from him...

 

newaysssss.... im over it...

sooo whats been new with me. in less than 2 weeks ill b going to uni!! which is scary cuz the fuckfaces havnt sent me my offer of study yet.. lol but then again.. the piece of paper that they needed got lost in the mail so thats why i havnt gotten it... so i gotta wait for that.. argh

 

stupid mail.

 

what else has been happening.... nothing really.. apart from boy trubs..

fucking boy trubs.. whats that shit abt....

 

seriously!!

SOOOOOOOOO OVER ITTTTTTT!!!!!!! OVHHHHHHHHHHHH! Ohhhh-Veeeee-H... (lol.. i dun kno how to spell H)

 

do u all like my perty new theme? its yellow and bluey/green!!!!!!!!! and theres a teddy bearrrrrr that i can E-hug whenever i want to!!!

i got sick of looking at my old green theme... with the strawberrys that i culdnt eat... and the hat that i culdnt wear.....

damn strawberrys and most of all... DAMN hat!!!

got me all excited and errythang..

 

anywhore....... for some reason.. i keep looking at my msn list to see if a certain...

ohhhh visitors... brb...

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ok now im back.. lol hehe.. now where was i..

oh yeah...

for some reason.. i keep looking at my msn list to see if a certain person comes online.. which i kno he wont..

because hes too busy for mian..

its quite sad really... so i rekon.. someone suld entertain me!!!

keep my mind off sum things.. cuz i hate being in this kind of situation.

not knowing WHERE i stand.. thats the most annoyingest feeling ever!!! (if annoyingest is a word)

 

ARGHHHH ok.. no entertainment is currently being showen to mian

so ima go...

Signing off...

Ciao bellas.

i will see u when i am bored... and looking for entertainment... so get that ready for the next time im online..

okie doke?

Man... I dunno what to do.

 

Here I am... sitting on my bed... still awake... at 2.30am in the morning.. wondering what the fuck Im doing...

Im constantly stareing at my phone waiting for your message.. which... I know wont apprear cuz youve fallen asleep on me..

 

Yet again..

 

and.... I kno youve been busy... and I kno its important, but it feels like its been happenin way too often..

 

Like Im being pushed aside..

Like you txt me when its convient for you..

Like Im some doll you can play with whenever you feel the need..

 

I thought I was fine with it... I told myself that you need the space to do your own thing..

 

But now.. It feels as though... Your taking advantage of it...

Like you dont care that Im sitting here waiting... Worrying.... Wondering if your ok...

You think this shit is easy?

Me being here.. And you being there?

 

I cant stand being far away from you..

I cant stand having to sit here and worry about my boyfriend...

and most of all..

I cant stand it that youve made me love you this much that Ive ended up in this kind of situation...

 

All I want is a little more effort from you into whats left of our communication...

 

Is that too much to ask?